it is not worh it

I found out a few days ago that my friend tried to commit suicide. It made me decide to make a public post on every page that I have everywhere about something that I feel very strongly about. NO ONE IS WORTH THAT. There is not any person in this world that is worth taking your life over. He was upset over the fact that his girlfriend could not deal with some things about the way that he was. I feel bad that I did not realize that it was that bad. I think that the most important thing though is to realize that no one is worth that. You can always find someone else or you will be ok on your own. If someone does not want to be with you, then no matter how perfect you think that they are for you, you are better off with out them. If they do not want to be with you then they will make you miserable because they are miserable. I know this from personal experience on both sides, I have been in relationships with people that were miserable because they didnt want to be with me and I have made people miserable because I didnt want to be with them. You can always get over these situations no matter how much you think that you need a person or you love them. Just get help from a professional if it is something that you can not get over on your own and ask for help from family and friends there is no shame in that. Your family and true friends would rather help you through a tough time then to find you dead.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know that it is not quite Valentines Day yet but I wanted to get a jump on things. I am like that always have to be the first, not that anyone comes here...including me since the last time I was here was to wish everyone a Happy New Year and I usually only log in to make comments to other people. Anyway Happy Valentines Day to all.

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My night was cut short when my brother and sister in law had to go home and take care of the baby. My brother thinks that going to Richmonds was a bad idea too. I had a great time! I was so happy to be out. Not even upset that I didnt get kissed and couldnt wait to have more fun. Why is it that I am the oldest and yet I am the one that is yearning to go out and have fun and the other two are turning into pumpkins. At least my brother was up until Midnight and he does have an excuse. Having a family is a good reason to need to be home at a reasonable hour. I need to find someone to go out with though cause I want to go out and have fun and keep not having any one to go with me.

Merry Christmas

I just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas before I get on with my day and my celebrating. I am off to meet my sweet pea. I wish everybody a wonderful day.

Changes to my blog!

As all of you can clearly see, with the help of my wonderful and magnificent brother, I now have links to his and MC's blogs as well as statcounter and clustermap. Now my blog might give people the impression that I know what I am doing. Of course I will learn over time to do some of these tricks, but in the mean time, I owe it all to Wanderer. Not that this is a change, since he is a wonderful, magnificent, charming, intelligent, witty, damn near godly individual of whom I am extremely jealous of his very existence. All of you should stop by and check out his site so you can also see how wonderful he is. Maybe even bow down to him, as he is that spectacular of an individual and you would benefit greatly from simply knowing him.

(by the way, did I mention Wanderer was great?)

Well I have managed to stay away from the drama in the other land. It would appear that they are back to stalking me but nonetheless I have not commented and not gotten drawn in. I do still have to figure out what I am going to do about the situation right now with my daughter and her current living situation. I also have to figure out what I can do to help my sister and my brother. My relationships with both are very strained at this point. Things are slightly better with my brother again but I know that there is still a big problem there that needs to be adressed. I think that its about time for a big family meeting, we may need to find someone to watch his little girl so that we can all get together and talk about all the things that are happening in all the familys right now. We all effect each other in the way that we act since we are all so close. I know that the holidays are going to be hard this year due to the job situations and thus the money situations with the family at this point. It is hard on everyone. We need more than ever to pull together as a family but I have learned through all my growth and the "psychological crap" (as my brother puts it) that I go for, that part of being a family is getting in your face and saying the hard things. I dont like that I am in a situation or two of being afraid to do that. I should always feel free above all with the family to speak up and say what I feel about where I am at and where they are at. Family doesnt blindly support each other but says what the fuck are you doing with your life when you are screwing things up and they see it. I have to run so that I can get dressed and get on with my day.

Well I dont have much to say today but it occurred to me after I got the message from my other brother(MC) that stays up to late early this morning that he had started one that I had started this blog to comment on my actual brothers blog. As such this was a place seperate from the myspace ones that my favorite neighborhood stalkers that I could say whatever I wanted about what was going on in the family and in my personal life with no fear that their prying eyes would see it. Of course over here my brother might see it and take offense if I am mad at him or correct my grammer and spelling cause we all know that my grammer sucks. All I really had to say today was that I am actually going to use this one and of course HAPPY THANKSGIVING to all.